first the dreaded thyroid....I feel like this is the place to start since it is what is affecting most all of my life right now. You see, when it is low, I am miserable and just want to sleep. when it gets high, I get emotional and am still miserable. And I have dealt with both and I can't decide what is worse....because they are both stinking awful. I think, though, I really hate being an "emotional nightmare", which is what I have dubbed myself during these times. Little things push me over the edge, and the the crying starts and well, it just isn't pretty. And that is where I ended up last week....first work upset me, then I started thinking about things and I started looking at other things and got even more upset. By friday, well, we had upgraded to an "emotional wreck". And the worst part is, when I get like that, I just want to hide. And usually that is what I do. And I do it quite well.
But I am so very lucky to have people in my life who won't let me do that sometimes....especially when they know I am really struggling. I had wanted to go to Dallas to see friends, but had kind of cancelled so I could stay home and wallow. Yes, I admit it. Wallow in self pity. Because some times I just want to do that. I admit it - I do. But someone wouldn't let me. She knows me inside and out and hearts me even when I am an emotional wreck.....and she told me to get my butt to Dallas. So after much complaining and fighting, I ended up giving in...and left for Dallas.
I ended up first meeting my friend MM to catch up...because she just got engaged and I had to hear all about it....and her....and see that pretty ring. It was so fabulous to catch up....I heart her so much, and I miss all of our college days when we got to see each other all the time and just be silly. It was such a great time....we got to eat at Fuzzys Taco Hut....and it was fabulous. I have heard about it over and over again, and it did not disappoint. They opened one in College Station, and let's just say - its a good thing it wasn't open when I was in college. My favorite - the hot sauce bottle. Enough said.
Then I got to go see my friend CJ and his sweet wife and daughter. It was fabulous partly because I hadn't ever met his daughter and she was so stinking cute. I loved getting to see her talk on her "phone" - which were actually purple plastic ribs....and she would giggle into the phone, which is exactly what I would expect happens everytime her mom and dad are on the phone because they are just fantastic like that.
And after those two visits, let's just say the mood was MUCH better....something about being away from home and just being better. And then getting to spend the night with her and having a fabulous dinner and LOTS of talking time, well, I was back to normal. The thing that I love about her is she doesn't let me get away with things....she knows me way too well, and when I try to say "well, its just this" she just says NO NO NO NO NO - K you know better - you are just going to get hurt / upset / that's just plain stupid. And I appreciate that more than you know. I am like a little child. Sometimes I just need boundaries. And someone to tell me what those should be! (and that I am being stupid!) And she took me to a great new restaurant....this one. First the sign:
Wish I could accurately describe how great it was. It was appropriately named....because they sell souffles. And GOOD ones....both ones for main courses and then of course desserts. And the best thing was, the main course ones are like between 200-450 calories. And the dessert ones are between like 150 and 350. SO you CAN eat really well....and it tastes just amazing. All in all - the food was fabulous...as was the inside of the restaurant.
If you live in Dallas, you need to go. ASAP. It was fabulous. As was time with KE. It was exactly what I needed. And some time with these guys:
So, I am in a better place. For now. But we have GOT to get this thyroid in check. And soon. Its just M-I-S-E-R-A-B-L-E.
Second, I am SO excited that my friend SM bought a new house. It is ABSOLUTELY fantastic. I wish I had taken picture of it - it is just a cute house. I did take a picture of me and her nephew though - I mean, isn't he the cutest thing ever too?!?
yeah, knew you'd agree on that one. Anyway, seeing S's house makes me want one....really bad. But then I start thinking and talk myself out of it. I like the low no maintenance appeal of my apartment. I know, I know all the commentary about how good it is to buy a house....I mean, I have heard them all...."you are throwing away money", "you can never accumulate wealth without buying a house", you say it, I've heard it. And I think what it really comes down to is this -- I don't want to do it by myself. There. I said it. I don't. I want someone to buy one with....but God and I are working on that. My patience is running really thin right now. But I am trying really hard to find that patience. But its hard. Very hard.
And this week we started our bible study again. I HEART those girls too. We can talk about anything and I appreciate that....and I am so glad that right now with everything else going on -- I get to see them every week. It is definitely a BRIGHT SPOT in my week...and exactly what I need.
So that is all I can muster right now...in the life of lippe. I need to get to bed so I can get up at the crack of dawn to go get my butt kicked by my trainer....which I love more than you can ever guess.
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