its been a long week...

any week you start off the week at the emergency room, well, its going to be a long week. Tuesday I spent the day trying to get in touch with doctors and dealing with nurses....which is pretty painful. I think that most nurses who work at my doctors offices suck. I said it, they suck. I wish I could say they didn't, but its like most of them aren't helpful. or don't answer the phone, or don't return messages or do whatever you would like for them to do. and heaven forbid they work 1 minute past when they are supposed to.

I went back to work on wednesday and felt like crap....I spent a lot of time with my head down on my desk, almost praying for it to stop. Its like a vicious cycle - I feel bad when I stand for more than about 10 minutes....or when I talk for more than a couple of minutes.....or I haven't eaten -- in the last 20 minutes. Its almost crazy. The talking thing really gets me -- especially because I spend all day talking to my staff....and now when I do, I start getting lightheaded, out of breath and need to put my head on my desk. And the nausea, well, its only not bad when I'm eating. And, well, I've been eating a lot this week, and not working out. That's gonna hurt...but I don't know what else to do. So I'm kinda at a loss. And the worst thing is, I am okay in the morning till around 9:30 or so, then it hits light a freight train and usually around 6:30 or so, I am MUCH better. Its so weird.

I finally got to talk to my endocrinologist's nurse...that was a loss. I gave up. So I called my regular doctor who I love - they got me in and I spent some time in his office trying to figure it out.  Let's just say he learned a lot about my thyroid (or lack thereof) and thyroid medicine than he probably ever knew before. He decided I needed to stop one of my thyroid meds they just put me on for a few days and then start taking it again -- half the dosage I had been taking before. HOPEFULLY that will help. We are only on day 2 - and I made it through 1 hour at the office, almost passed out i the middle of an interview, and then made the decision to go home.

I'm just more frustrated than anything. I can handle being sick - but when you can't breathe, can't talk, can't walk very far, and have to basically get your staff to get you lunch....well, its frustrating. And then at the end of the day, after you have struggled all  day, you feel better. SO FRUSTRATING.

So I did go to dinner this week with friends that we had scheduled....just not nearly as much fun when you have to sit quietly and not drink any wine, but still had some good food and got to see some of my favorite people. The count is up to Pappa's Steakhouse...twice, Mark's, Mockingbird Bistro and going to Del Frisco's tonight...which I am excited about....now I just need to take a nap so maybe I'll feel better.

Here were the KPMG girls from dinner at Mockingbird....I love these girls. We had so much fun!