I AM SO FRUSTRATED...

I am so frustrated at many things....but let's stick to this stinking medicine. I go in for blood tests every week and every week I am no where near the range of 2-3 for this test. 2 weeks ago I was too low, last week I was too high, this week I was too low again. So, here is the dosage this week:
- 2 pills 5 times a week
-1 1/2 pills 2 times a week
I mean, I just got through the last dosing schedule and finally figured that one out and we have to change it again!!!

*sigh*

And the worst part of all of this, i can't come off restrictions until I get regulated and stay there for a while. Still no more exertion (which means no climbing those stairs at the office and having to ride the elevator one floor which REALLY pisses people off! - I mean, I think i am going to have to make a sign on my back that says "don't blame me - blame the pulmonary embolisms!") and no lifting more than 10 lbs for a few more weeks.

*sigh, louder this time*

At this rate, I still won't be able to do anything for Christmas except lay around! (well, that isn't so bad! I do need to call and tell my dad no "manual labor" at christmas! Too bad J won't be here to be the "favorite" which also means the "one always chosen for manual labor" ) Plus, what makes me really sad is no dancing at the Christmas party. And we all know how much i love to get on the dance floor!!!!

But I did have a quick chat with the doctor - the only good news is he looked at my echo-cardiogram and it was normal - so I guess I have one thing to be thankful for! We discussed my ugly symptoms I had yesterday (the shortness of breath and the feeling faint) and he said it was probably stress induced and that if there was chest pains in there too - that i needed to go to the E.R. But seriously, he said my lungs probably hadn't "healed" and weren't ready for the long hours and stress I was putting myself through. That probably deserves another sigh but I guess I already knew that so I can't let it piss me off anymore. So i guess I need to gear up for busy season by SLOWLY working more - not just pull a 15 hour day after barely working 8 hour days!

so that is the update - we'll find out about thyroid tomorrow. Tonight a bunch of girls are meeting our friend JV from San Antonio to catch up. It was a year ago we were in Mexcio for her wedding! How time flys!