a sonogram....

why is it when everyone hears sonogram - they immediately think you are prego. seriously, you know you can have a LOT of your body sonogram -ed...not just a baby! The number of people this week hearing I had a sonogram and giving me this look like "whose your baby daddy?!?" awesome. GET IT RIGHT PEOPLE. I had to get my neck sonogram-ed!

I went in today...little did I understand that it was the hospital. and I had to check in - sign a million pages of paperwork, tell them if I had a DNR or was I an organ donor. geez people, it's only a picture of my neck! I waited FOREVER. Sad thing is, you wait for 2 hours for a procedure that takes less than 10 minutes. Welcome to my life.

I had found my sonogram from last June last night when I cleaned out my desk (which we will get to later) and it said I had no nodules....which was good news. that means that if I didn't have them then, i probably won't have them now and no surgery! the lady even mentioned she had pulled my file and wondered why they were doing it again. But i did she when she was measuring it has grown a bit since the last time. that isn't so good. but I think it will shrink with the radioactive iodine.

So we did the test - it hurt - worse than last time. don't know if I am running out of room in my neck or what. but she would "jab" that think just in the wrong places, hold it there and push. yeah, not so great. But it didn't last that long and i was out of there. Next stop - ENT visit in a little over a week.

I am about to start the crazy blood thinner regimen again. I'm not very happy about it - the last test I was really high (not enough green veggies during busy season) so I had to do the "don't take one today or tomorrow, the next day take 1 pill, the next 2 days take 2 pills, the next day after that take 1 pill, then take 2 pills for 2 days.....and on and on. I literally have to keep a calendar on my fridge. it sucks. And when the count down to "no more thyroid" begins, around 10 days before and 6 days after I have to go back on shots. LOVELY. nothing like shooting up lovenox in the stomach for 16 days, twice a day. Welcome back to the bruises in the stomach.

and I did clean out my desk last night. it was so sad. I talked to our BU PIC last night and he was awesome. I am sad that the first really good conversation I have ever had with the man was the week before I left. then I cleaned out my desk. and cried. more becuase everyone kept saying it was sad to see it so empty, and a few of the partners kept coming by saying thanks for everything and that they hope that i love my new job and the worst...the one that made me cry...was that they were really worried about my health and they wanted me to take care of myself.

*sigh*

if only I thought i could stay there and get better. but I know I can't -- I need to get away from it and start a new life - a healthier life. So I now have a bag of 8 years of knick-knacks, print outs of funny things from my staff, lots and lots of accounting books sitting on my kitchen table. my cube is clean....and it is sad looking. so blah.

oh well. off to dinner with a friend and then tomorrow I have a shower, a work party and going to stay with the Hicks family for the night - can't wait to see little WH! it's been too long since I have gotten to play with him!

hope everyone has a great weekend!