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there has been a lot going on....as usual...had a great weekend in Seguin with the fam and high school friends...I'll post more about that later. I started feeling sick again last week -- and I think I posted that the doctor didn't see anything and gave me some meds and I went on my merry way. I started not feeling well again this weekend and went back to see him today. After a lot of blood letting and a cat scan, it would appear my lungs aren't doing so hot -- there is supposedly a nodule in the top right and the bottom of both are not working as well as they should (I think the word was constricted). This is probably due to an infection at some point (when, who knows) but I heard nodule and I started to tune out (as I do when I hear bad news) and didn't probably catch everything I should have. I need to have another session with the doctor tomorrow to have him repeat it all over again! The verdict was another cat scan to look at it in a few months to monitor the nodule and try to work on breathing deep to get the bottom of my lungs to work properly again.

Then I did hear him when he said he wanted me to do a stress test. I think he is a little worried because my heart rate is up again and he doesn't want to chance anything....everything else I've ever done (EKG's, Echocardiograms) all have come back okay - so now I think he just wants to make sure. So I have to hop on a treadmill really soon and let them check it all out. And he mentioned after that he wants me back on beta blockers....which I was on after the whole blood clotting incident and I got off around May when I started working out again. I really don't want to go back on them AT ALL....but that is just me hating taking meds and having my body rely on them. Plus don't even get me started about how it could impact my other meds.

Yes, I am really nervous and scared....I don't know what to think or do. Is this whole thing just not a big deal or should it be a big deal? I really don't know. My doctor didn't seem so worked up about the lungs....maybe a bit more about the heart, but I don't think that there is anything that I can get worked up about right now about because he doesn't really know anything yet - he is just trying to cover his bases.

But this is me, and I am worked up regardless. I just hate medical stuff....especially when I don't fully understand it all.

So say a little prayer that everything is really okay...and for peace for me....