still not feeling well...

I've been emailing with my doctor (who consequently is probably annoyed with me by now. I told him that I should just make an appointment so we can chat and he can actually get paid) and he thinks that my blood pressure has dropped due to the meds. Yesterday, he asked if I could take my blood pressure (now, let me say I left work at 4 because I felt so awful and was in my PJ's in bed). So I got out of bed, put on clothes and went to find one of those machines. lets just say that you can't find those machines anywhere. turns out that there is a liability to the business associated with someone passing out while taking their blood pressure. who would have thought about that.

Anyway, I tried to get them to do it at the Redi-Clinic at HEB - turns out they don't take blood pressure there either. And i was going to just pay the fee to see the doctor - but no. And don't worry - they came out to explain it to me - that I could pass out and those places are just for colds, not "serious illnesses" - I tried to say, I just need my blood pressure checked and they basically told me to go to the ER. I think i started crying at this point and said something ugly and walked out. God, please forgive me for what I said.
So, I go to CVS (this is stop 4 on this escapade) and buy a $70 blood pressure machine. Take it home - round 1 good. it is perfect. then every hour after, not so good. most time it is between 100-115 / 50-60. just in case you were wondering, they consider 120/70 to be good. if the bottom number is 40, you shouldn't be alive. AWESOME.
Of course, now I email my doctor and just decide to go to bed. Maybe the machine wasn't working? I wake up - 100/51. Great. I go to work and take my trusty little machine with me. I take it there around lunch - it is 100/60. A little better - but then, even better - my staff take theirs to see if the machine is working. Don't worry - it is.

The plan is tonight to take 1/2 of a pill, not a whole pill and see what happens. hopefully, after 1-2 days of this i will feel better. I made an appt with the doctor on Monday just in case. I just want to stay away from the hospital all together.

*sigh*

will it ever end? I swear - if I end up in the hosptial again - that would be three visits in less than a year. my insurance will have a cow, i am sure. oh, well, as long as i don't have to pay it! and yes, I already packed a bag for the hosptial just in case. is that sad? I didn't want SM or LM to have to go and dig for clothes and underwear to take to the hosptial for me. And yes, i have freaked out the entire family now. they want it all to stop.

But on the positive side, I am going to Jamaica with my aunt and cousins in May. I am excited about that....a whole week! And I just took my blood pressure and it is up to 105/71, so that is getting better, right?