I didn't realize...

I didn't realize it had been so long....really long....since I had posted. I think its primarily been because its just been so stinking busy... Let me see if I can catch you up really fast:

Work...has been work. I knew taking over a new business unit was going to be work. But this is WORK. I feel like I have meetings every day from 8:30 to 5 and sometime in there I have to find time to work with my staff and get everything else done. Plus, this month I travelled to my two field locations in Liberal, Kansas and Grand Junction, Colorado. That was an experience in itself....I mean, I didn't know what a meat packing plant smelled like. Now I do!!!! I loved Colorado, but then again, who doesn't in the middle of the summer!!!

This month I was SO proud of our team -- we finished on our worst work-night at 7:45 pm. That is SUCH an improvement from  3:30 am the month before. And I hope that we can just keep making that number get earlier and earlier!

It is getting so much better -- all of our team is meshing together -- and everyone is learning how the other operates and what we need to get done. We still have a way to go - but I am so happy with how much we have been able to accomplish so far! I just can't wait to see what the rest of the year is like!

Everything else...well, its been all over the place. I look back over the past month and I am not really sure what I have done with my life. Seriously. I feel like everyone keeps asking "where have you been?" and I don't really know! I have still been working out -- but my weight is ALL OVER THE PLACE. Which of course is SUPER frustrating -- but I am learning its only a number. and to get over it. But the good thing is that it all stays within the same 10 lbs. So I guess I am okay with that. My thyroid is getting back to normal....and by normal I mean that is based on the "crying" scale. I have had a few people really piss me off and its taken a lot to make me cry - so I feel like that is progress! I will go see the Endo again next week so I am excited to see how the numbers fair when she does the blood tests again!

I do feel like there has been a lot of "Karen" time lately....thinking through things...processing things...learning a little more about myself. Maybe its been the reading I've been doing -- I've read a lot of books from Lysa TerKeurst that I absolutely love. I've already talked about Made To Crave, but I read one the other day for wives...Now, I know I am not a wife (and may God BLESS the man that ever decides to marry me...he's going to need some serious patience) but I read all of these reviews and I just felt like I needed to read it. And I LOVED IT. I told some of my married friends if they didn't buy it - I was going to mail it to them ASAP. I think everyone who deals with men should read it. It was fantastic. I'll look up the title and give you a review of it later.

But I also think its been a lot of who I've been surrounding myself with and everything that everyone else has been dealing with that has made me spend a lot of time in thought....and prayer. It makes me realize how fragile life is, and that I shouldn't get so caught up on the little things...because in the long run, its such a small thing and not worth the time spent worrying about it. I've also learned that I say I am "Fine", when in reality, I am not. I'm trying to get better at expressing my feelings -- much to some people's dismay...or alarm -- but its good for me...and hard for me all at the same time. I know most of you are saying "WHAT? you express your feelings all the time!" ...but trust me. I am very good at putting up a front if I don't want you to know how I am really feeling. I've had years of practice...but I am realizing that internalizing it isn't good. For me, for those who I am angry with. I'm getting better....slowly.

And my family...there has just been a lot going on. The biggest thing is my dad had surgery to remove his gall bladder last week. He is doing MUCH better -- but still a little sore. And my dad doesn't have a high pain tolerance....enough said. So say some prayers for him that he can get better quickly -- there is a lot on my parents plate in the future and I want them to get to enjoy all of it!

There is a lot more going on -- I'm sure I'm not saying it all -- but I have to run off to dinner with L & C - two of my favorite people I haven't seen in what feels like forever. I've missed them and can't wait to catch up! Talk to you soon!