I finally gave in....

i finally gave in....and called my doctor back this morning....after I had cried when I woke up, cried when I was in the shower, cried when I went to work and someone sent me an email I didn't like, and cried when someone didn't text me back with what I wanted to hear. I figured 5 times before lunch was a bit much. I had already talked to the nurses a few times and they all said they didn't want to change it -- but this time when I called, surprise surprise, I started crying leaving the message and told them I couldn't live like this anymore.

I got a phone call back and I got my medicine changed. Maybe now my alter ego 'Crazy Emotional I live in a Fog Karen' might go away and 'Normal Fun Karen who doesn't Cry' might get to come back. I'm excited to see her - I haven't seen her in a week or two. So tomorrow I will not take my meds to start weaning down and hopefully by the time I go back and see her in December, I can be back to normal. It takes 4 weeks to feel the affects of the lower dosage, but hopefully it will work.

So, there is some hope.....well, maybe more than some.